&maybe this time it will never end,

I'd give anything to feel alive.

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 17:48:34 GMT

I've realized .. in the end all you have is yourself.

Like I mentioned earlier in an entry .. everything beautiful in life is embelished? I still find myself to be correct on that view. I believe we can all survive independently. I mean, without being in love. Everyone believes being in love has something to do with romance and the duration of it is for eternity. Real love is compromising and understanding your partner. The idea of love is fabricated making you believe it's receiving chocolates and flowers, but I'm afraid most people are confusing love with romance.

Deep down, I honestly know I don't need anyone. As in, a significant other. Just loving someone and caring about someone else more than myself makes me feel less selfish. Being in a relationship helps me feel like I found stability -- but when the relationships has it's downs I feel like I'm losing stability. Although lately I've been sucking up and thinking I don't need anyone when things are going wrong.

I don't really spill out my problems to anyone anymore. I'm glad I guess. I haven't been using drugs or anything to deal with issues in my life that I try to run away from either, so I'm somewhat proud of myself. I've kind of just been putting things off. Ha, the story of my life.

i'm cold & alone

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 05:25:40 GMT

the word for the what i am right now is vunerable.

..... i think i will be for a while.

i might not be in love with travis anymore, but the breakup is fucking hard as shit to deal with. esp sober.

being alone, feeling unwanted, feeling used, feeling insecure. i sat here alone & by myself, just thinking all day. i've felt so much in this one day then probably a while.

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 23:35:56 GMT

you guys this is what i was afraid of with staying at home all day
my heart is broken, i feel like im never gonna get over this :'(
i keep crying, and i can't stop

please i wanna get over this ASAP

testing entry/F-O.

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 18:53:40 GMT

omfgz. rules are ; COMMENT TO BE ADDED.

you are NOT allowed to critisize me in my entries, OK?
some entries are friends only and some are public.
comment once in a while.
no e-drama, i don't have time for that.